Anis, 17.

I can't stop-
04:17 Tuesday, 24 November 2009



I want to dance like that so baddddddddddddddd :(

Labels: daily bla, random shit

sooooo-
22:56 Wednesday, 18 November 2009

Holidays!

And today's outing with Azri and Gavin was awesome! Hopefully she'll post the photos soon. Tons or para and shooting bad guys.

Took tons of photos along the way


and


broke up with ash.




Anyhu, i think things will be okay for me soon.
I need a break.

08:03 Monday, 2 November 2009

I want to be getting ready for school, to rush my makeup and be complaining about how sleepy I am but this is all normal bla bla bla. Because then it feels normal and as though I have a bit of routine.


Instead I'm here at dad's typing so painfully slow because my eyes are so swollen now they feel like they just might explode. They burn. I hate this, i hate feeling useless and sick and missing school. Because god knows I'm already falling so far behind it just might get worse.

it would be great if life just paused for one week so I can get through it in time for assessment, then we'll see how things go.


Dear God, please make my life stable.

amin.
Is everyone here make believe?
01:05 Thursday, 29 October 2009

I miss a lot of things.

I miss having my family under one roof, I miss seeing my friends..my other family on a regular basis, and I miss feeling secure. It's been a while, but I'm _fairly_ optimistic that this will all come to pass and I'll be just fine.

Although, before that can happen, I'm not so sure.

I've stopped being interested in my schoolwork, and I wish I haven't. I crave history and literature and music and so many other things I cannot pursue in the meantime. As much as I want to pursue fashion, I'm just not so sure anymore. It all feels so superficial and monotonous...which is ironic considering my other interests.

Having ash in my life reminds me constantly of the things I used to love as a child- the prose, the history..the reading into every single little thing it drives me nuts when I either cannot articulate or comprehend it. I miss being able to do these things, and a part of me feels like I'll never get to do them ever again.

I miss the long talks and debates we used to have, the times when we'd stopped speaking because we disagreed about say..religion. And how we'd stare at each other and suddenly burst out laughing because we're just ridiculous.


I can't wait for the holidays to roll around - finally some opportunity to create some magic. Maybe a collaboration for ash and I, I'm not entirely sure. Maybe some pictures/stories..I'm not very good with photoshop.

Also, holidays means dates! I hope this'll be enough to keep me going, haha. I still haven't had a proper date with ash in a long while. Movies, a day lazing about or running around the city with his huge camera and maybe hitting the arcade. Yeah. Just like old times. To break the text up:



I think I might wanna try incorporating this into freestyle. I mean. It can look pretty ugly, but the hand movement things are pretty rad.

Moving on, here's something else I miss ; clean skin. My skin alll over has gone so bad I don't even know where to begin. It literally makes me want to scratch my skin in vain attempts to rip the thing off my flesh. I still have several grievances with myself, though considerably less so.

For one, my stomach is now an odd pouch thing where it's not so much fat as it is weird left over. I haven't weight myself in ages, hope I get to do that soon. I need sleep and exercise...but this will all come soon. Looks like I've got one hell of a weekend this week.


To creating magic
a.
PARRRTAAYYYY
21:49 Monday, 26 October 2009

CLICK TO MAKE BIG BIG
instatiable
22:05 Monday, 19 October 2009

It's been a while. I've been going back and forth between mum and dad, trying to deal with schoolwork. I'm still lousy at it, but I guess it's alright. I like my classmates, I can call them friends. I feel so ...blessed in spite of everything (yeah, cliched and corny but just hear me out okay). I still have a home, family and friends...and Ash.

Labels: fashion, lolita, minor update.

old feelings come rushing back-
21:09 Sunday, 11 October 2009

Met up with Chloe and Gordon today, together with Daryl and Mac(is it?). Pretty fabbbbulous, even though it was for maybe two hours? Yeah. Had a cuppa and then headed to the arcade. I gave them the biggest hugs ever. It's been what, 2 years? God I never really thought about missing them, but then today I realized with a sinking feeling that they were the ones I missed the most. I missed their wit, the random talks and strange reactions to nothing in particular. I missed the air the familiarity we had. Hell, I just missed us.

Labels: daily bla, family, update

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