Think about the love inside the strength of heartThink about the heroes saving life in the darkClimbing higher through the fire, time was running outThink about the chance I never had to sayThank you for giving up your life that dayNever fearing, only hearing voices calling outLet it all go, the life that you know, just to bring it down alive
Be Strong BELIEVE
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01:05Thursday, 29 October 2009
I miss a lot of things.
I miss having my family under one roof, I miss seeing my friends..my other family on a regular basis, and I miss feeling secure. It's been a while, but I'm _fairly_ optimistic that this will all come to pass and I'll be just fine.
Although, before that can happen, I'm not so sure.
I've stopped being interested in my schoolwork, and I wish I haven't. I crave history and literature and music and so many other things I cannot pursue in the meantime. As much as I want to pursue fashion, I'm just not so sure anymore. It all feels so superficial and monotonous...which is ironic considering my other interests.
Having ash in my life reminds me constantly of the things I used to love as a child- the prose, the history..the reading into every single little thing it drives me nuts when I either cannot articulate or comprehend it. I miss being able to do these things, and a part of me feels like I'll never get to do them ever again.
I miss the long talks and debates we used to have, the times when we'd stopped speaking because we disagreed about say..religion. And how we'd stare at each other and suddenly burst out laughing because we're just ridiculous.
I can't wait for the holidays to roll around - finally some opportunity to create some magic. Maybe a collaboration for ash and I, I'm not entirely sure. Maybe some pictures/stories..I'm not very good with photoshop.
Also, holidays means dates! I hope this'll be enough to keep me going, haha. I still haven't had a proper date with ash in a long while. Movies, a day lazing about or running around the city with his huge camera and maybe hitting the arcade. Yeah. Just like old times. To break the text up:
I think I might wanna try incorporating this into freestyle. I mean. It can look pretty ugly, but the hand movement things are pretty rad.
Moving on, here's something else I miss ; clean skin. My skin alll over has gone so bad I don't even know where to begin. It literally makes me want to scratch my skin in vain attempts to rip the thing off my flesh. I still have several grievances with myself, though considerably less so.
For one, my stomach is now an odd pouch thing where it's not so much fat as it is weird left over. I haven't weight myself in ages, hope I get to do that soon. I need sleep and exercise...but this will all come soon. Looks like I've got one hell of a weekend this week.
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