Anis, 17.

don't be naive...
03:19 Thursday, 3 December 2009




This year, I did really badly in school. Worse ever in my life.
I don't think I'll ever live this down, but that's fine by me. I used to be the one that could always handle it, and deal with things and be strong, and suddenly this year...not so much. Just weak and pathetic and stupid. So, so stupid.

I learnt a lot of things tonight. I'm glad I did.

It just made me realize how blessed I am to have who I have in my life. I don't have a lot of them..but the ones that stay? God. They really do care. I felt that I lost my sense of self a long time ago. Sometime through the first term. I think that was when I became less and less sure about myself. And I became more aware of failure as an option. I tanked in school. Surely I'll disappoint my parents, but I'm going to take this in stride. I have the talent. I'm sure I do, somewhere...but I'm missing my drive. What happened to it, I don't know. But I'm going to make sure it comes back. Until then..I'll make the most of my time.

I need to sort myself out. I keep saying this but keeps getting pushed aside.


Well. Only a month or less left of break, and I need to stop wasting time.

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